chatty birthday grwm (how i'm doing, health, moving, life)

Intro, Makeup Routine Start, and Life Update on Diagnosis

The creator introduces a "Get Ready With Me" video filmed in Tokyo, explaining that this is a third attempt due to previous dissatisfaction. While beginning a makeup routine involving circle lenses and brow definition, the creator shares a significant life update regarding a recent medical diagnosis. They discuss their stoic integration of this diagnosis, comparing it to past experiences of abuse and acknowledging a history of passive suicidal ideation and neurodivergence.

• The video is a redo of a "Get Ready With Me" format, filmed in Tokyo with rain audible.
• The creator uses circle lenses (green, gray, or clear with limbo ring) to enhance eye appearance.
• Brow routine involves using Anastasia Brow Definer in ash brown to fill in the outer third only.
• Eyelid preparation uses Kosas concealer as a base instead of primer, set with loose powder.
• Bronzer used is Physicians Formula Butter Bronzer, applied to tie in with the crease color.
• The creator discusses a recent diagnosis that shortens their life expectancy.
• They describe their reaction to the diagnosis as stoic acceptance, comparing it to an accepted fact of reality like height.
• Past experiences of abuse and mistreatment are cited as more acute daily stressors than the diagnosis.
• The creator reflects on a history of passive suicidal ideation and "dipping out," linked to neurodivergence.
• The diagnosis has paradoxically helped the creator be more present by removing worry about long-term future concerns like retirement or biological clocks.

Color Analysis, Lifestyle Transition, and Liner Technique

The creator discusses using the Weirdo eyeshadow palette to apply a bright pink outer V, explaining that their deep-set eyes require color deposition rather than heavy carving. They share a color analysis from Domo that identified them as a "bright spring," validating their preference for minimal, colorful makeup over smoky looks. The segment transitions into a personal reflection on moving back to New York due to unsustainable stress and dissatisfaction with social dynamics in Los Angeles, before demonstrating a specific elongated eyeliner technique.

• Uses the "Weirdo" palette (owned for 3 years) to mix shades "Mohawk" and "Scene Queen" for the outer V.
• Prefers depositing color over carving or smoky effects because deep-set eyes naturally create a crease.
• Received a color analysis from Domo identifying the creator as a "bright spring," which aligns with their preference for bright, minimal makeup.
• Decided to keep current hair color (close to bright winter) because preferred alternatives like orange-red, black, or platinum are either aesthetically disliked or too damaging.
• Acknowledges high levels of daily rumination and stress, describing the lifestyle as unsustainable.
• Moving back to New York to escape what is perceived as passive and dishonest social etiquette in Los Angeles.
• Uses KVD Tattoo Liner to create an elongated, thin wing that extends significantly past the eye to mimic wider-set eyes.
• Notes that their makeup skills were developed through childhood exposure to Jeffree Star, Jaclyn Hill, and Manny MUA tutorials.

Life Relocation & Lash Application Technique

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The speaker discusses the urgency of relocating from Los Angeles to New York to align with their partner and their music producer, citing a desire for independence and a need to finish a delayed album. The segment transitions into a detailed makeup tutorial where the speaker demonstrates a specific technique for applying false eyelashes. This involves cutting a single strip of manga-style lashes into two sections to solve issues with inner corner lifting and ensure a natural fit.

• The speaker intends to move to New York to be closer to their partner and producer, ending a period of compromise in Los Angeles.
• Music production has been delayed for two years due to the producer and speaker being in different cities; moving will allow them to finish the record, which is over halfway complete.
• The speaker prefers "manga style" spiky false lashes over full glam lashes, often purchasing them from Japan or Amazon.
• A technique is demonstrated where a false lash is cut into two pieces: the outer two-thirds and the inner one-third.
• The lash is applied in two sections with clear glue to prevent the inner corner from lifting, a common issue with the speaker's eye shape.
• Lash clusters are used for daily makeup but are considered insufficient for the vertical lift needed for going out.
• The speaker emphasizes letting lash glue get tacky before application for better adhesion.

Eye Makeup Fix, Primer Philosophy, and Long-Wearing Base

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The creator addresses a makeup error by applying ColourPop shimmery shadow to fix fallout from forgotten shimmer, while discussing her preference for practical, long-lasting products over dewy, short-lived looks. She transitions to face makeup, selecting a NYX silicone primer over a glowy alternative to ensure durability, and shares an anecdote about her face makeup surviving underwater scenes in a film. Finally, she applies Armani Luminous Silk foundation mixed with Sachu glow stain and Tarte Shape Tape concealer, emphasizing her desire for a natural satin finish that holds up without creasing.

• Applies ColourPop Supershock "Frog" shadow to fix fallout from a previously missed shimmer step.
• Mentions being a Virgo who dislikes applying makeup with fingers due to hygiene preferences.
• Prefers silicone primers (NYX She Glam Smooth and Blur) that provide actual coverage and longevity over milky/glowy primers that fade quickly.
• Shares a story about her full face makeup lasting through underwater surfing scenes in Malibu for a movie.
• Uses Armani Luminous Silk foundation instead of Pat McGrath because she learned Pat McGrath is not cruelty-free.
• Mixes a drop of Sachu liquid glow stain into the foundation for a subtle touch.
• Aims for a light-to-medium coverage, natural satin finish that does not completely hide freckles.
• Uses Tarte Shape Tape concealer, describing it as "cement" that does not crease or move, and blends Sachu contour stain underneath for a mixed-product contour technique.

Makeup Routine: Powdering, Under-Eye Detailing, and Personal Updates

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The creator continues their makeup routine by setting their face with translucent and pressed powders, specifically using the Kimchi Chic Puffpuff Pass Powder under the eyes and Maybelline Fit Me for the rest of the face. They detail their controversial under-eye technique, which involves drawing a faux lash line with black pencil, filling the scoop with iridescent white, and applying thin false lashes. The segment also includes personal anecdotes about moving to New York, dealing with a recent diagnosis, and strong advocacy against tanning due to skin cancer risks.

• Uses Kimchi Chic Puffpuff Pass Powder under the eyes and Maybelline Fit Me pressed powder for the rest of the face to achieve a natural satin finish.
• Creates a "faux lash line" under the eyes using a black pencil, starting at the iris and scooping down to connect with the liner.
• Fills the under-eye scoop with an iridescent white pencil (Kidos) and uses NYX Milk white liner on the waterline.
• Applies thin, disposable false lashes to the bottom lash line, noting this is the most difficult and annoying step in their routine.
• Clarifies that the black line under the eye is a faux lash line, not an eggol (lower eyelid crease), which they define using a color gra.
• Shares personal life updates regarding a medical diagnosis and the process of moving across the country to New York.
• Discusses disliking a slight tan from surfing filming, emphasizing that there is no safe tan and advocating for melanoma prevention.

Face Makeup: Contour, Blush, and Highlighter

The creator moves on to the face, applying a new Dique Vcut Cut Blending Shading palette to contour the cheeks and nose, noting that it offers a preferred gray tone compared to their previous Kevin Aucoin contour. They layer Hints G001 blush with Nars Exhibit A to achieve a pink, bouncy finish on the nose and cheeks, followed by the She Glam Lunar Highlighter. The window concludes with the application of a clear Benefit brow gel to set the brows without adding volume.

• Applies Dique Vcut Cut Blending Shading (3-color palette) as a contour, preferring its gray tone and pigment over the lost Kevin Aucoin contour.
• Blends contour with a butter blond bronzer to soften the edges and uses the lighter shades in the palette as setting powder.
• Uses Hints G001 blush as a base (described as a sheer, bouncy, Nars Orgasm alternative) and tops it with Nars Exhibit A.
• Applies a significant amount of blush to the nose and cheeks, noting a personal tendency to underestimate how much product is needed.
• Applies She Glam Lunar Highlighter with a fan brush for a subtle glow.
• Finishes with a clear Benefit brow gel to set the brow shape without adding darkness or volume.
• Briefly mentions a recent personal win regarding a movie project where they acted and wrote.

Finishing Touches and Closing Remarks

The creator concludes the makeup routine by applying a nude highlighter, setting spray, and a detailed lip application involving liner and stain. She notes that this full routine is performed only one or two times a week rather than daily. The video ends with an apology for forgetting a glitter shadow step and a request for viewer suggestions for a new "smart girl explain" series focusing on intellectual or philosophical topics.

• Applies a nude highlighter ("nude nudies") by tapping onto high points with fingers, avoiding the included brush.
• Uses One Size Until Dawn setting spray for a mattifying effect suitable for hot, humid weather in Tokyo, preferring it over Pat McGrath Glass Skin Setting Spray.
• Applies a tap of mascara to natural lashes to match the darkness of false lashes.
• Uses the purple shade from the "Only Child" palette as a subtle liner at the corners of the mouth using an angled brush.
• Lines lips with Urban Decay "Bad Blood" on the border as a guide, blending it out to avoid a harsh dark liner look.
• Applies Kofi lip stain in "Black Cherry" for a glossy stain effect that does not require peeling.
• Clarifies that this routine is done 1-2 times a week, not daily, despite frequent video documentation.
• Admits to a momentary panic about memory loss after forgetting to apply glitter shadow.
• Invites viewers to request topics for a future "smart girl explain" series on intellectual or philosophical subjects.